Feel so small in my own world

Can't remember how did it feel when they ' re still together .
Can't remember have i ever felt , be stared with so much love from a father .
But the more n more hurts ,
 feelin love wasn't as much as before ,
 wasn't as pure as before ,
from my mother . .

Now ,
i 'm only a small thing trying to keep laughing .
I ' m only a small thing trying to hide the truly feeling ,
I ' m only a small thing trying to survive ..

To fight the pressure ,
To fight the discrimination ,
To fight the tiredness ,
To fight the fears ,
And to hide the tears ..

Been here all along ,
Lost the way how can be strong ..

Nomore i can do but arranging  messy words ,
The moment going down, feel so small in my own world ..